It’s been a rough year for me so far, you know…emotionally. Nothing too crazy has happened, well except of course that my life has suddenly evolved into “kid” stages rather than “baby” stages. I have written about this subject on a few different occasions, and I have cried over it more than that. For the past five years of my life, I have done nothing BUT babies. My life was a constant whirlwind of feeding, changing diapers, washing clothes, cleaning up vomit & urine, and excessively enjoying every laugh and giggle that ever came out of their little mouths.
Pretty recently, all of this is occurring less and less. Don’t get me wrong, the cleaning and such is nice to have less of, but I have been denied cuddles and kisses by all three of my children. It doesn’t happen very often, but the fact of the matter is that it still DOES happen! No one ever told me that there would be moments when your children wouldn’t like you. Really? That is so not fair.
Anyway, the point of this post is not to relive old memories…
The reason for this post is to explain that although my life is changing, my kids are growing up, and I wish with my whole heart that I can get some of their days back, there are still some days that I can’t help but relish in the enjoyment of their growing youth. My littlest one, Miller, has just become a little boy almost overnight and has caught the attention of everyone he passes by. I know every mother says this, and I am joining in on the boasting…he is soooo smart, and sweet, and so stinkin’ cute!
Today, I left all three of my kids with 2 different sitters while I attended a MOPS planning meeting with some ladies at church. The first sitter was my good friend Shannon. She has 2 boys herself and is an excellent mother. She is also the one who I called at 6 am last October (after only knowing her for maybe a month) to watch my other 2 kids while Miller was in the hospital for his little choking episode. She was a life saver then, and was a life saver yesterday when I really needed her.
After a long day (and an extremely fun one!) I came home completely worn out and suddenly remembered why I would be completely incapable of holding down a full time job right now! The kids went to bed pretty quickly and easily and I enjoyed myself on the couch, snuggled up with a good book, because hubby already crashed out in bed. As I read, I received a text from Shannon that just made my heart melt once more. Yes, I want Miller to be a baby again, but seeing this text just made me so excited to see what he will become as he grows up! Big plans for my little man, indeed!
Like I said, Miller has just become something great and is a little light shining so brightly in my life.
Thank you Lord, blessing after blessing.
